One and half love cubes

We were waiting for the tea at Cha Bar in Leela. I loved those evenings more than I loved her. Perhaps I always confused the two. I would toss a sugar cube in my high fired Darjeeling tea. Then I will pick another one and with quick a quick blow of tea spoon I would spilt it in two. I would add a half in my tea and she would smile. The only predictability I ever liked.

That day I thought I should tell her..
“You shouldn’t love someone more than he can take..Its like adding extra sugar cubes” I said..
“If I had an option I would give you exactly what you want..one and half love cubes..but I don’t have that option”

“hmm..and I’m wondering what options I have”…I said after a long silence..

I was sick of love.. sort of.. but I wanted her as a friend.. wanted those evenings..weren’t they lovely?

She was quiet. The smile had evaporated. Her face looked like a dull overcast sky. I was thinking about something to change the subject, to change the mood of the evening.

The waiter brought tea. She always prepared it for me.. Except the suger cubes..I eagerly waited as she poured.

Then, to my utter surprise she added four sugar cubes in one cup and none in the other one.. She placed both the cups in front of me..

“You have options” ..
finally she spoke something.. but that made it worse.. My evening was spoiled.

I thought about it. Then I picked up the cup without sugar. It tasted bitter.
She took the other one.

“Well deserved punishment for spoiling my evening” I thought. I was so selfish about this whole affair and I knew it every moment.

She sipped quickly, before the sugar cubes could dissolve. Within minutes she was done.

“Let go”..
I liked the idea better than sipping the tea without sugar.

Now when I look back I think she was right. I can’t make sugar cubes of love. I can’t take out one and half.

And that reminds me, I can’t relate to my own view point.

Paper Glider

I asked the morning breeze
“Touch my soul with your free spirit”
I asked the sun
“Loan me sun rays
For few days”
I asked the mountain
“Give me the key
to stability
Tell me the secret to remain on the ground
While touching the skies”
I asked the sky
“why?
am I limited by my own horizons
while you enjoy your endless expanse”

The breeze, the sun,
The mountain
The sky
Continued to play
The drama called ‘The Day’
Act one, scene two
A beautiful morning went by
Unperturbed
Few questions
Unanswered

In the night however
Within confines of two sleeping eyes
The breeze, the sun,
The mountain
The sky
All came in
and said
“We didn’t know what to say
B’cause we didn’t know we have it
The free spirit
The shine
The stability
The limitlessness

If you say we trust you
But ask us not
If you know it
You must have it,
already
Search the pockets of crumpled white matter
Somewhere within you
You have it all

And choose not
Fetters or freedom
Darkness or light
Movement or stability
Limit or limitlessness
For they are not arch enemies
As you see them
They shared the same timeless, spaceless womb
Until the existence decided
‘Now is the time to exist’

And don’t be deluded by play fight
B’cause you might
find the fetters which liberate you
or freedom which binds you
the darkness which glows
or the glitter which makes you feel dark
the pulsation of the motionless
or movements which lead nowhere
the horizons that underscore your limitlessness
or the boundless which hides within bounds of matter”


Next morning
As the sun rose
Wind flowed
As the azure skies
Kissed the white mountain
I was there
Almost
Without a question
Without an answer
Without a choice

But it felt ungrateful to keep quiet
So I wrote “Thanks”
On a piece of paper
Made a small glider
And gifted it to naughty wind
Which eagerly carried it away

After a brief unstable flight
The glider gained height
And grace
At a moment it looked as its going to fly
Way beyond the glistening mountain top
Way beyond azure sky
Way beyond sun
but then
sun dazzled my eye
and I lost track of the glider
I don’t know where it went
Who claimed it
The breeze?
the sun?
the mountain?
or the sky?
Whoever did
deserved it